Archive for August 2006

mean what you say.

August 18, 2006

so i’m grabbin some fast food lunch today at BK’s…

i sit behind a young girl and what appear to be her three children also having lunch. the oldest was a girl around 6-7 years old. next was a 4-5 year old boy. and then there was an infant in the porta-craddle at her side. while the girl only appeared to be in her mid-twenties at most, i can’t say for sure if they were her kids- but here in urban-land babies come unto girls in early adolescence.

well, by now you’ve probably conjured a stereotypical image of what i might say: frustrated young mother… babies having babies… kids screaming… running all over the place. the ordinary wouldnt be much to write about. what amazed me was the extreme opposite of any stereotype.

the two toddlers were extremely well behaved. not fidgety, not fighting for attention, not protesting. all in all they were all pretty quiet, but the mother did periodically talk to her children and take moments to coo and smile into the craddle of the infant. quite pleasant and i admired their dynamics.

so as i sat there i debated whether they were her kids or what. my impulse was to find rhyme and reason for not being stereotypical. after they finished their un-hurried lunch and prepared to leave, there was an inclination to their composures. the young boy had one of the beloved fast food happy meal toys. he was attemping to break it. it seemed he might have been trying to taught his mother who said to him, “it’s not mine, break it if you want. but if you do i’m gonna throw it away.” he couldnt resist- he broke it. the mother swiftly took it from him and threw it into the trash. it gets more intriguing– no protests, no tears. yes he looked disappointed, but he appeared to know he asked for it in some way. and only moments later the mother warmly gave her infant more coo’s and smiles. i was impressed.

i can only assume the mother’s solid demeanor is testimony to the parental practices of being sincere. no threats, no false promises, no anger- just a strict adherence to her words. and her words were not extreme or without warrant. wow.

live by example and mean what you say.

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there’s always good.

August 8, 2006

so i didnt get the job at google. yeah- i was disappointed and i could argue some inconsistencies in the process but in the end it makes no difference.

when i got the news today i was a lil’ upset and maybe even “offended,” but upon reflecting on it i realized my frustrations were not about the job itself, but rather some financial escapes i hoped to find in the job. to explain- my financial situation has gotten heavy recently. while it shoulda been stressing me out, i was relatively unconcerned as i had expectations of soon being back on the full-time work force. the skew from this expectation and the fact my financial situation became much more of a reality is what really roused my emotions. but i’m okay with it…

i’m glad i didnt get the job. two great things have come from *not* getting it. big things. important things. 1) i’ve come to realize the depths of my relationship with my girlfriend. we’ve had a bumpy path to where we are and many of the situations have caused some doubts to accummalate. this “bad luck” was a path to dissipate those doubts. my girlfriend was extremely supportive and positive during the interview process- but was even more supportive, nuturing, and caring when i gave her the bad news. i admit, i had hesitations in telling her, but her true beautiful self showed brightly in the situation. i love her so much. she’s a keeper.

and what else? instead of looking for a path to escape my financial burdons i instead decided to pull myself up by my own boot straps. while the escape route to the full-time job would’ve worked it really woudnt have taught me anything. i’m gaining something much more valuable by digging myself out on my own. i coulda wollowed in the hardships to come, but i chose to take responsibility and make things better.

i’m sadded by not being entitled the opportunity to work at what appeared to be a good place, but i’ve gained things so much more valuable to my life.

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tennis sux

August 1, 2006 – Photo Gallery – Anna Kournikova: Life After Tennis

for a while i started to like tennis when anna came along. then it sucked again. then came venus and it was good again.